Well i havent updated in a whole year. This year has been pretty good. The live music has been awesome, lots of new friends. John having his accident was the shittest part of the year so far. But he is getting better slowly. Takes time.

Listening to: Muse - Citizen Erased

Mood: sobering up

Wants: bed time

Today would have to have been one of the most relaxing days i've had in a long time. I did nothing what soever. Jb and I sat around my house alllllll day listening to Muse. He read Dilbert while I was sitting in my comp chair. Bloody brilliant.

So nothing too big is been happening in my life lately just work and doing things on the weekend. I really crave for something big to happen to me. Hopefully something will come soon.

I'm going to bed

Stay safe
be good
Ewen

Mood: Tired

Listening to: Svo Hljott-Sigur Ros

So i just relised that I haven't submitted a piece since may this year if you even consider what i submitted a piece. Things are going well these days, i have the aprentiship i wanted and i'm still working two jobs. Couple of weeks ago i had a few days where i was quite depressed and that was not nice. Thinking about my job alot and where it was going put me into a bad state. I'd worked so hard for it and it appeared to go nowhere. I've become a much deeper thinker lately and relised I need something to take my anger out on something, yet i don't know what. It will be alot since i've kept it bottled up for so long and hadn't had the chance to let it all go. I don't want to let it out on someone because then i will feel really bad about it. But i let myself be a punching bag for others. I let them take their anger and problems out on me. I can't get mine out so it all builds up and becomes worse and worse. I observed alot last night from some people, I'm still trying to figure it out myself. why they did it. i might be going too deeply into it but it seemed like they meant to do it. Anyway enough from me.

Stay safe
Ewen

Mood- Goodo

Agenda- Take Sebastian to the doctors and ring the police.



So last night we went out to the city, just to good old O'malleys. We had a great time there having drinks. Sebastian, me, Branislav, JB and John Conroy. All had a great nite drinking and telling tales. John Conroy and JB left and went home, the 3 musketeers stayed for a while and then went to hungry jacks. This is when the trouble started. There were three oriental/samoan guys there. Being me and Branislav we were having a joke and i turned behind me and asked one of the guys how his nite was so far. "good mate" he started getting agitated. Now when someone starts getting uppity with me i go into self defence mode. I start to breath heavily through my nostrils and my shoulders tense up and my fists clench. (i'm an angry person) So anyway this guy starts coming up to me saying shit and his friend is on the side saying "one punch man, one punch thats all it takes" I was getting ready to be clocked in the face. Sebastian comes over and the guys mood does a back flip "do you guys want burgers?" he asks. "yeah man allrite if its your shout" "do you like dick?" he asks us, "no sorry man we arn't into that, are you?" All of a sudden he starts punching Sebastian in the face and before we know it hes on the ground and the security guard has restrained the guy. The police are alerted to what is going on and come over. The officer asks spaz if he would like to file an assault charge then and there and put the guy in a cell for the nite. He declines and we leave to get a cab home. Sebastian has blood coming out of his mouth by now and scratched up elbows. We cab it home and then talk about it there, hes pressing charges and Slav and I are going to be witnesses in the court case. This guy deserves a criminal record, its fuckheads like him that make the city a shit place at night. Fucking arsehole.


Ewen

Mood: tired


Listening to: nothing


SO i havent been very intarnet active as of late. I've actujally been busy, working hard for the money. Currently holding down 2 jobs one fulltime the other part time. Went out on friday night for Slav's birthday, i got absolutely trashed, best night ever. As you might have read from Stephs journal we got into some trouble with this guy. Especially when i stood up and said to him "Just fuck off you loser c**t" Nothing happened from it so i guess that was good. I really did want to kick his head in for trying to ruin our night. But i'm sure he reallyt got his head kicked in when he went home alone to a empty house, fuckhead. Anyway, nothing else to say sept im gonna be going out to this thing Emma and Nikki are organising. Yet us boys will probably end up going to Badgirls. hahahahahahaha


Stay good
Ewen